Its 2:14 in the morning, I am perplexed. Stuck on keeping on, stuck on well habits. I have to be at work at 8 but I feel words welling up from deep inside of myself. I won’t beat around the bush I swear, I met a person that shakes me in a way. It’s unusual, theres a certain magnetism and a desire to chase. I will keep it at that..I am confused and trying to void romantic lust from my mind.. Perfect option would be to call my friend that lives 300 miles north, We have always had good conversation.. Now he stays at a place with great minds, they live alike, speak alike eat a like.. Every conversation is a marvel, so we proceed to talk it out.. and we both talk about the un-needed stress to put onto romantic situations, gender roles, and the lines between sexual preference. So there is something to all of this.. Why would I repeat the same mistakes repeatedly over and over and over and over again (because I am a creature of habit)…. Because I have failed miserably every single time and I am just jamming the square peg into the round hole over and over again to wait until it works… The news there is it may never works if I fail to learn from my mistakes.. maybe if I step back, breath and reassess it will all work out… SO the thing is, I cannot out pressure where pressure does not need to be.. I should be complacent sometimes but I should also be passionate and I should make my voice heard… I cant be afraid and I must communicate, you must communicate, communication is key.
P.S I’m to tired to spell check or reread this right now, sorry for syntax.